Holy Moly

Holy Moly!!

It's been a few months since I've posted. A lot has been happening! ( Sorry for the picture overload). Christmas came and went. Despite how hard it was to spend our holiday without our lil guy, our family really made it special for us. We were blessed with some amazing gifts. Nick got me a silhouette (love love love it!) and I got Nick a remote start for his truck. I got a kitchen aid mixer, and Nick also got a lovely bracelet from his family that says "Madden's daddy".  Before Christmas I was lucky enough to get to go to Salt Lake City for the weekend courtesy of one of my employers Dr. Sutton! We decided to head down and go to the Hogle Zoo to see the Christmas Lights. It was that weekend that SLC got DUMPED on with snow so the snow and the lights were so pretty together and just gave it a Christmas Spirit. We had a ton of fun. 

Madden's grave for Christmas. Yes those are solar lights! They looked so good at night.

After Christmas we packed up and went to the Oregon Coast for a week like usual! It was so fun and

much needed.

Then we came back for 1 day to pack and head on our CRUISE!! For Nick's work about every 10 years they do a dealer meeting at a super fun place like a cruise. This year, Nick's parents couldn't take that much time off so we got to go! We went to the Eastern Caribbean which included Puerto Rico, Virgin Islands, Turks and Caicos, and the Bahamas. 

 

I was having a bit of a hard time over Christmas Break, so I finally broke down and decided it was time to clean out Madden's nursery. I felt like I was just dwelling on the situation and this room was just a constant reminder of what had happened. So we waited until we got back from the cruise and packed it up. I can't even begin to describe the weight that feels like has been lifted off of my shoulders. There is no nagging feeling there anymore. I feel ready to more forward and have a clean slate. I didn't get a before picture (darnit) We decided to leave everything else up because well, lets face it, it's too much work to move all that stuff and well lets just hope there's another baby to fill that room soon enough.

 

And finally, I'm getting a new sister in law/niece/and nephews! My brother FINALLY popped the question to his girlfriend Daniella! We are so excited for them!

Happy Valentines Day!

 

We also started tackling redoing our bathroom. We just completed the tub shower and tile surround, and the sheet rock, and in the next little while will come a new vanity, floor and mirror! I can't wait to show after pictures!

  

Ok I promise I'm done here...for now =) I'll try not to procrastinate so much next time! And good for you if you actually made it though this post!

I'm no Joseph Smith...

While I've been working on projects today I can across teachings from Joseph Smith's dad to him while he recently lost his son. I thought I would share it because I love it. 

“‘Joseph, my son, thou art called to a high and holy calling. Thou art even called to do the work of the Lord. Hold out faithful and you shall be blessed, and your children after you. You shall even live to finish your work.’

“At this Joseph cried out, weeping, ‘Oh, my Father, will I?’ ‘Yes,’ said his father, ‘you shall live to lay out the plan of all the work which God has given you to do. This is my dying blessing on your head in the name of Jesus.’”

Now I know I am no Joseph Smith but I believe this applies to us to. We still have the Lord's work to do. If we are faithful we will be blessed. I know at times it feels like it's the hardest thing to do. But in the eternal perspective it's a small trial in helping us be perfected. I'm thankful for my trials no matter how big or small. 

When you are down to nothing, God is up to something.

I sure hope so! This month I think was the hardest for some reason. If everything was good, I would have a 4 month old. What would he be like? Would he have his daddys eyes? His mommas stubborness? It gives me comfort

to know that one day I WILL get to know him and his personality. This amazing little guy has taught me so much about love, compassion, and faith I never even knew existed. Almost every time a patient will ask me if I have children. I look down, smile, and say yes, I do. I don't really explain myself too much because it probably makes for an uncomfortable situation. People usually don't know how to react when they hear my story. They either avoid the topic all together or let out heartfelt condolences. I don't blame them. Heck I wouldn't know what to say to someone in my situation either!

My Uncle Duane passed away unexpectedly last week. He was my moms brother. He was able to be burried right next to Madden. I'm glad because it'll be a few years before he has some company (Nick and I already bought our plots so we could be by him) I don't understand why all of this is all of a sudden happening to my family but I know we'll get through it.  I found this quote the other day. Normally I wouldn't like this type of quote but I found
it hilarious.

Well. It's true isn't it? 

 

Happy birthday Madden :)

Happenings

A lot has happened in the past month and a half! On October 3rd it was Maddens three month "Angelversary".  We got a planter and decorated his grave with Pumpkins. My mom had found these really cute stuffed animals. One of them is a little bear on his knees and praying. Its adorable.

Me and my friends attended the 50th Anniversary Of Dental Hygiene at ISU. It was over homecoming weekend. So much fun!

 This cute guy was born! Congrats Kambree and Kevin!

 Carving er...Drilling Pumpkins?

 This will be how we carve pumpkins every year. So easier and less messy!

This month has been more difficult than others. I can't quite explain why, but it was harder for me and Nick. Maybe its because I'm so frustrated that my body isn't cooperating and I'm super stressed about EVERYTHING. I'm sure the stressed out thing is attributing my body from going back to normal. I've tried everything to de-stress, working out, soaking in tubs, keeping myself busy. I got pretty desperate one night and youtubed some relaxation videos. I found one and tried it. Pretty much amazing! Ok I admit she's kinda creepy and her voice is WEIRD but I did it and it helped so much! I'll share! Don't judge!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k39GdfmYegk&app=desktop
The Alpha State of Your Mind

Happy Fall Y'all!