Welp, there isn't much hiding it anymore. I have been pretty reluctant to announce this because of everything that has happened. Nick and I are expecting a baby =)
<===== 7 weeks pregnant 
We are due in October. Yes, that means we got pregnant exactly 6 months after Madden. When we lost Madden we were devestated. We had waited 10 months for a family, and when it was taken from us, we knew the only way we would feel whole again was if we got pregnant right away. By no means are we replacing our son, but ready to add to our already wonderful eternal family. We are so excited for this little addition, but at the same time have been stressing/worrying the whole time.
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| On May 21st ( Nicks birthday) we found out we were having a precious baby girl. |
Those pictures are a little out of order, and really haven't kept dates etc. I have been completely awful about updating how far along I am and taking pictures. I hope I don't regret it one day! At 30 weeks we did the 3D ultrasound! I never did it with Madden. I'm so glad I chose to do it with our little girl! Can I tell you she already has a ton of personality (maybe a little too much like her mom). It was so funny, she had her arms in front of her face and it was difficult to get a picture. So the tech was pushing (rather hard and painful I might add) on my stomach to try and get her to move. Well we see her on the ultrasound make this really mean grimacing face including eyebrow movement, frown, and open mouth (looked like she was yelling) and then she moved her arms! She was not happy. But then a few minutes later we were poking her (softly) to try and get her to make some facial expressions, and she totally gave us a smile. So darn cute. I like to call her my sour patch kid.
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| Andddd the smile =) |
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| 31 ish weeks |
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| and Today! 32 1/2 weeks |
So because they never concluded what exactly happened to our sweet boy, we are not really being treated any differently than any other pregnancy up until 36 weeks. Then we will do non stress tests 2 times a week followed by weekly biophysical (?I think thats what they call it) ultrasound one time a week. I guess it is sort of like a regular ultrasound but measures the baby's CNS activity, monitors blood flow and activity. They also MIGHT take me a week early (which is all they really can do without having a medical reason). Which is cool and all but can I tell you it has been pure HECK worrying about this lil girl for almost 33 weeks already! It has been a blessing however, that she is super active. I feel like we already know her personality, and she is such a little sweetheart. Anytime I don't feel her for an hour or 2, I just kinda tell her, Ok now I need you to make me feel better, she gives me a little nudge to let me know she is there. Other times in the middle of the night if Nick gets worried, he will place his hand on my belly and even if I haven't felt her all night, the minute he puts his hand there, she just knows and gives him a kick. I love it.
This pregnancy has been COMPLETELY different than with Madden. With Madden I was super sick mostly the whole time, throwing up, and smells just completely appalled me. With her, I was a little sick ( but only threw up once or twice due to brushing my teeth) but it pretty much stopped at 12 weeks. Then the sweet cravings kicked in! I am not typically a cookie or cake girl, but oh man, I can't get enough! I have gained a little more weight with her so far then I did with Madden ( probably due to all those dang sweets!) Since it wasn't too long after that I got pregnant again, my body is also having a harder time carrying this one. I haven't swelled or anything like I did with Madden, but oh my goodness, the varicose veins, spider veins, and not to mention a hernia, my hips hurt, and I can't walk too long without just wanting to sit down. Don't worry, after this one, I will DEFINITELY give my body some time to recover =) I am trying to make the best out of it, but I wonder how I am going to go through 7 more weeks of this. However, I am so grateful that I was able to get pregnant again and start my healing process. It is still super hard because I get so worried all the time. I just have a completely different feeling with this pregnancy. Nick worries constantly, but I just have this calming feeling that everything is going to be OK, and she will be perfectly healthy.
